There is light at the end of the tunnel, and we are all here to support you. Why not start a special facebook page or whatever for all of us to support you. The forum is too public, but then you can choose which of us you want to talk to, and we can say things which also do not want to be public.
As most know I lost my wife, in a bad way, some 21 years' ago, and everyone was saying... "you'll get over it' but, you don't! What you have to do, and I've been in some very very 'dark' places my friend, is move on!
What you have to do is reach out to others for help, like us, and I guarantee that something will pop up for you.
One thing my dad used to say was... "one door closes and another door opens" and even in bad times... that has been proven for me!
We lose a pet, our car gets stolen and we lose our jobs OR, lose a loved one, (in whatever means that maybe like death or them leaving, if they have left it's like a bad tooth... get it out and move on), and all of this is called 'bereavement'... come on, you owe someone on here 4 pints and that's SERIOUS stuff sunshine!!
All I / we can say is, stop messing about... get your tools OUT as I KNOW that there's lot's to do around your home... no sitting and messing about... do it! Hahaha!!
Smile and the world smiles with you... etc, we're in bad time's so be strong! ?
Most folk on here, if not all, have shared the pain you now feel. It`s not good me saying you will not feel as bad in a while. Most, if not all, of us have been on the gving and/or receiving end of what you are feeling now. Folk are on here not so much to show off what we know electrically but to teach/learn because they care. They care about electrics but they also care about others, about you. They can`t help it.
Hello thankyou all for your support its always nice to feel wanted and valued I really do appreciate all your replys some of you have been through tough times and I see that my problems are actually not that bad compared to some that said the pain of a break up and the feeling of failure and worthlessness are truly awful. There is a small chance we will get back together when the virus is beaten but I'm not too hopeful anyway I really do feel better now thanks again oh and thanks to Liz in the tech department who made it possible for me to post again cheers Kelly Marie x